Okay. The plan for spring break is a week-long road trip to look at grad schools. I can start in DC with georgetown/american, move to new york for nyu/columbia, check out SMFA and MassArts and RISD in Rhode Island

my arms feel so heavy...i hate him. i mean...how am i supposed to believe he likes me when he does stuff like this? fuck. maybe i should just break up with him.

Once again I'm feeling abandoned, lonely, and unloved. I'm not sure what exactly is going on here. Maybe it's because I feel like he has a life and I don't? Maybe I should stop talking to him online so much. It just really makes me unhappy and lowers my self-esteem a lot. Well okay. No going on AIM for the rest of the day. If Brian wants to talk he can call me.

i hate my life. Or maybe i hate it here. not sure exactly. but i feel so unhappy. like nothing is happening. i wish i hadn't said anything yesterday. maybe i should just suck it up and stick it out. i mean...i have to finish this semester anyway. and next year moriah will be back. maybe i should just do this and get over it. i mean...if i transfer, how do i know things won't be horrible at the new place? what if i'm just as miserable, only now i have to stay at the new school forever? plus mom and dad will want me to live with them if i go back to buffalo and i can't do that again! i don't know what to do. i hate everything.

One big bowl of cereal
Pasta/Artichoke dish
about four slices of white bread
Pepsi

First I ate two bowls of cereal, then two pierogies, then a bag of fritos, then artichoke pasta meal.

fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck
i fucking hate this fucking day. fuck